I wanted my own dog. Brad had Zeus, a chocolate lab who was
his hunting buddy, constant companion. Zeus tolerated me. I was in charge of
keeping the water bowl filled, the kibble in his bowl twice a day, and the
occasional belly rub. I wanted my own furry bundle of devotion. So I’d been
scouring the ads for a few weeks. Certain I wanted a lab of my own, but not
finding anything that clicked.
On my lunch break I was reading the local paper when the ad
caught my eye. “Free Hungarian Pointer female.” I knew from conversations with
Brad that a Hungarian Pointer was a Vizsla, his brother had one briefly when
they were kids. I also knew they were an extremely rare breed in the States,
and you didn’t just find one to give away. I kept the paper, and casually mentioned
it to Brad when I got home. Ten minutes and one phone call later we were in the
truck to take a look at her.
The woman who had her had had over 300 calls. We were the
first people to show up. She was trying to find a home for the dog for a friend
of hers, and wanted to make sure the dog went to a good home, preferably
someone who hunted birds and would use her for what she had been bred for.
We pulled up, and saw this beautiful copper colored, lean,
excited puppy (She was only 13 months old), locked in a 4 x 6 kennel with a dog
house in it. She was vibrating she was so excited to see us. While Brad talked
with the woman, I let her out and dear sweet goddess she ran. Huge wide
circles, so happy to be out of that cage and stretching her legs for the first
time in days. While I played with her and watched her run, Brad got the story
of her short life.
She had been purchased as a gift from an uncle for his three
year old nephew. Dad hated her from the start, he wanted a German Shorthair
Pointer, not a high energy, hyper as hell, scrawny Vizsla. Mom didn’t like her
either, she had an active toddler to care for, now she was supposed to take
care of this dog as well? She wasn’t allowed in the house. She was verbally and
physically abused by both the husband and wife. She was uncontrollable. The
abuse of the dog turned to spousal abuse, and the wife had dropped this dog off
at her friend’s house, just get rid of her.
I half heard most of this. I heard this sad, maddening story
as I watched this dog run and jump and come to me when I whistled. She would
run to me with her eyes sparkling, her tongue hanging out the side of her
mouth, grinning that doggy grin that intimated she had a joke, and she would
share it with me if I could catch her. She would stand still for a moment to
have her head petted, then she was off again. The woman casually mentioned the
dog hadn’t been allowed out to run for four or five days because she was so
hard to catch.
Brad walked over to me and whispered, “Do you want her, with
all that she has been through?” My response was immediate. “If you think I’m
leaving her here you are nuts.” Half an hour later, we were in the truck with
Penny the Vizsla.
We stopped to buy her food, a collar, and some toys. She
spent the entire trip home with her feet on the back of the seat, nuzzling my
ear or Brad’s. To this day, the best way to reward her for good behavior is to
let her nuzzle your ears. Her tail never stopped wagging. We got home, let her
out of the truck, and decided to take a walk down the pasture. She ran and ran
and ran. Always circling back with that grin on her face. I am convinced it was the best day she had
ever had in her short life. I watched her and knew beyond the shadow of a doubt
that I was hers and she was mine. Forever.
There were problems. She wasn’t house broken. Didn’t know
her name. More energy than I had ever seen contained in one body in my life.
She was terrified of Brad when the initial excitement wore off. It was six
months before she realized when he got down on the floor it was to play with
her, not to hurt her.
But oh, she and I. She was my shadow, my Velcro dog, my
love. She was never more than a foot away from me. She sat next to me on the
loveseat, her head either on my lap or laying on my shoulder. When Brad would
leave for work or be gone on overnight trips, she curled up in the tightest
ball against my spine, gradually uncurling as she slept to rest her head on the
pillow next to mine. It was love, deep and instant and enduring. I couldn’t
have asked for a better dog.
Brad did eventually get to hunt with her. And she could hunt. There wasn’t a pheasant
in the county that was safe from her. Safe from the shotgun sometimes, but not
from that nose. She took great joy in finding those birds and getting her
reward by nuzzling Brad’s ears.
While shotguns didn’t bother her, thunder and fireworks
terrified her. Twice she got away during thunderstorms. The first time, she was
gone for three days. I was frantic.
Certain she was gone forever. The afternoon of the third day, after I had sat
down and prayed for her to find her way home, she came trotting up the pasture,
as if returning from a bird hunting trip. I cried into her neck as she sat
patiently, waiting for me to regain my senses and get her some food.
The second time she was found by a pair of hikers, who got
her back to me less than 24 hours after she took off. It was still that heart
stopping joy when I saw her again, and she almost jumped out of the window of
their car to get back to me. There was no doubt she was really my dog.
So many memories. So much joy and love. My bright eyed
copper girl is old now, her face mostly white, her hearing gone, and her
eyesight dimming. She still likes to get out and run, but instead of hours of
joyful circles she is content to trot around the yard for half an hour or so, then retire to her cushion in the
house to sleep. She barely eats. Her nose is no longer pinned to the ground
searching for the scent of pheasant. She can’t hear the rooster pheasant that
lives in the front pasture when he calls for his girlfriends.
I am losing my shadow. My canine love. I watch her as she
sleeps, to see if she is still breathing. I see her search for me when I am
standing right next to her. I don’t know if she can hear my voice any longer.
Someday very soon I am going to wake to find she has slipped away in her sleep,
or I am going to have to make the heart wrenching decision to have her put
down. Someday soon I will bury her in the side yard next to Zeus the chocolate
lab. I will have to bury my shadow, and a large chunk of my heart.