Wowsers, two years since my last post. Hmm, time to begin again. Time to get myself back into the habits and practices that make me happy. Writing here is good practice for writing period. And I'm kinda good at this, if I would just post a bit more. (snort)
Life is complicated. Brad is still working out of town, in North Dakota now. I'm so happy for the work, for the money to pay the bills, but so unhappy without my husband, my best friend. It is hard, and the next person who tells me how great it must be to not have my husband "in the way all the time" is going to get punched in the nose. Seriously.
I spend most of my time reminding myself of my blessings, and I have so very, very many. But I'm struggling here, with being alone so much. And my writing, my sewing, the things I love so very much are suffering, because I can't muster the energy to focus on doing those things. And I certainly haven't been talking about it, to anyone! Not that I'm ashamed of being sad or depressed, but I have so many good things in my life, and really, should I be complaining about the fact that my husband is gone so much working when so many others are out of work and would be happy to be in our position??? Yeah, martyr much Kat????
So, I'm going to make a concentrated effort to be present more, here, in my life. And I'm going to write about it, because it makes me happy, and I'm good at it. It may not be pretty for a bit, but bear with me, and I will get better, I promise.